Today I went to one of my favorite Thai food restaurants, sat down, and had lunch….BY MYSELF!
Have you ever gone to a restaurant by yourself or maybe to the movies? I find it slightly refreshing, even a bit liberating but VERY intimidating. When I was in my early 20s I was talking to my aunt about a movie that I wanted to see and told her I needed to find someone to go with me. She couldn’t understand why I didn’t just go by myself. But I’ve never been to a movie by myself I told her. She explained to me that I needed to take time to do things like that alone to truly “find myself.” And she didn’t mean in some philosophical sense. She meant it from the standpoint of being confident, self-sufficient and taking that time for self-discovery.
To this day I STILL struggle with this. Even today I started wracking my brain on who might be able to have lunch last minute with me and desperately began to flip through my phone. But do you know that every single time I get brave enough to say, “Table for One,” I always find myself rejuvenated at the end of the meal?!
It’s these times when you immerse yourself in solitude that you can allow yourself to be enlightened on YOURSELF. It’s those times that you can find a new clarity on who you are as a person.
Random selfies….(Does anyone else feel super ridiculous taking selfies? Actually just looking at this collage makes me “ewww!” Daddy Russ always chuckles to himself when he sees me taking a selfie! You can tell I like sunglasses!)
For more creepy selfie pictures of me…follow my Instagram!
This is my sTORI being written as you read. – Love, Mommy Tori