It’s true…I’m weepy today. I just can’t help it…the tears won’t stay in. They just keep spilling out. I just dropped Luke off with my Dad so that he can ride with him to Houston to stay for the rest of the week. Daddy Russ and I are flying out to Aspen for vacation. I am so overjoyed about going to Aspen but for some reason I’m REALLY struggling with leaving Luke. For the last couple of days it’s been weighing on me and my imagination has just run wild with all the awful things that could happen to him. I actually laid in bed last night thinking I shouldn’t go. I just keep praying for God to give me peace of mind and to keep Luke safely in his arms. I know he’ll be safe and loved every second with his Papa Daddy and GiGi but I can’t get my mind to calm down.
We went to Aspen last year and Luke stayed with my parents as well. He was about 8-months-old and I had a hard time last year as well. But it is NO WHERE near as hard as this time. I’m so used to spending each and every day, 24 hours a day with him. I know every smile, laugh and cry of that sweet boy. He’s always by my side.
Is it this hard very every mommy? When does it get easier?
This is my sTORI being written as you read. – Love, Mommy Tori